Playboy Mommy chords by Tori Amos

A lament of grief, "Playboy Mommy" was written following a miscarriage that Amos suffered. Amos suffered her first miscarriage in December 1996 and began the process of writing and recording From the Choirgirl Hotel soon after. "Around three months, I lost the baby," she said in an interview for the Phoenix New Times in 1998. "I thought I was out of the woods and everything, so it was a really painful thing. She was a little girl, and I was really connected to her. I had to deal with understanding that I'd never hold her in a physical form." After losing her daughter, -- whom she had named Phoebe, -- Amos recalled feeling as if she had been abandoned by the child, -- presumably, because the baby did not see her to be a fit mother due to her musicianship and life on the road. " "Playboy Mommy" dealt with my feelings of rejection," she said in an interview with Rolling Stone. " 'Wasn’t I good enough to be your mother, didn’t you want me? Well, don’t come then. Go choose some little right-wing Christian for your mother.’ It’s a human response." Though many have misinterpreted the opening line to suggest that her miscarriage was caused by a fall, - "in my platforms, I hit the floor/fell facedown." - Tori had her own story behind it. "I had written this thing and I couldn’t get the first line," she said, "I was in France with my friend Beenie, I go a lot of places with my friend Beenie. We were there with another friend of hers and her mother. Anyway, 2 of them were having an argument, so I decided champagne for everybody was a good idea. And thats what you do in France, and it was like, after lunch, so thats good...that’s improvement. And anyway they make very good champagne, we had Krug and if you know if you ever have that experience, just like, even if you have to steal it...it’s really worth the experience. So. okay, I sent champagne around because everyone is arguing, and Beenie comes to like update me on the fighting on who’s winning. And so I’m standing at the top of the stairs in a schmoozy suite, I’m embarassed to say, but I was. And so we’re standing at the top, and she goes ’let’s go out to the deck and talk about this.’ So its one of those round stair cases like they have on the Love Boat. And so I’m in these Prada Studio platforms, and I’m at the top of the stairs and I fall all the way down stairs cause I trip on my platform shoes, it serves me right. So I trip all the way down and I lie flat on my face, and I swear to Christ, I’m lying flat and my nose is like taped to the rug, and I said ’oh Beenie I need more champagne, this is so horrible’. But I laid there and I go ’oh my god Beenie oh my god, I have a first line.’" Read more on Last.fm. User-contributed text is available under the Creative Commons By-SA License; additional terms may apply.